after carnival

Carnival wasn't like I would think , but...
I walked by the streets of suburbia and downtown , I was looking 4 a man or men , I sucked at least 20 men , but I 'd want more , I'd have a sex with a man dressed like woman , not a drag queen , I dreamed too much , but it didn't happen unfortunately.
I saw a thousand of hot men , but just only on last day I found Diogo a young teen , friend of Fabio a boy that I got together years ago, so I took both to my house and I sucked & fucked dIOGO 2O much , his body is hot, I have paid him , but it's worth.
I hope repeat several times , but to pay is the problem , but I'll find the way.
I am a old queer , a bitch , a lonely pervert that think on sex all the time , nowadays , I can't get imagine someone , I am far from my friends , I don't have a constant lover , someone to imagine , to wish ; I 've lived part time lovers , adventures without roots , Idk if it's better or not 4me, I 'm just living and leaving.
Today this song is in my mind round &round

Papparazzi - Lady Gaga

We are the crowd, we're co-coming outGot my flash on it's true, need that picture of youIt's so magical, we'd be so fantasticalLeather and jeans, garage glamorousNot sure what it means, but this photo of usIt don't have a price, ready for those flashing lights'Cause you know that, baby, I...
I'm your biggest fan, I'll follow you until you love mePapa-PaparazziBaby there's no other superstar, you know that I'll bePapa-PaparazziPromise I'll be kind, but I won't stop until that boy is mineBaby, you'll be famous, chase you down until you love mePapa-paparazzi
I'll be your girl backstage at showVelvet ropes and guitars, yeah, 'cause you're my rockstarIn between the sets, eyeliner and cigarettesShadow is burnt, yellow dance and returnMy lashes are dry, purple teardrops I cryIt don't have a price, loving you is Cherry Pie'Cause you know that, baby, I...
I'm your biggest fan, I'll follow you until you love mePapa-PaparazziBaby there's no other superstar, you know that I'll bePapa-PaparazziPromise I'll be kind, but I won't stop until that boy is mineBaby, you'll be famous, chase you down until you love mePapa-paparazzi
Real good, we're dancing in the studioSnap, snap to that shit on the radioDon't stop, for anyoneWe're plastic but we still have fun
I'm your biggest fan, I'll follow you until you love mePapa-PaparazziBaby there's no other superstar, you know that I'll bePapa-PaparazziPromise I'll be kind, but I won't stop until that boy is mineBaby, you'll be famous, chase you down until you love me Papa-paparazzi